I've been really anxious about this move cause I've lived in Virginia my whole life. I can tell you how to get around most of its cities, direct you from most anywhere in the state so on and so forth and tomorrow night I'll be living in Pittsburgh. In addition to that my parents have said they will not support me in any respect financially so I am going to need health insurance as well as car insurance and as I'm no longer in school I will also need to cover my rent.

It's all so much to do at once, but my attitude is, well trying to be, fuck this state and most of its inhabitants. I know a lot of good people and I'm sure there are more in this state whom I haven't met, but I'm tired of the Virginia people bullshit I encounter all the time and I'm looking forward to finding out more about what Pennsylvania people bullshit about.

I'll be back around Christmas I think, but I might be working and given my family's (lack of) support in this move I know I won't pay for gas to come back home to see them.

My girlfriend has a lot of friends, not close friends, but friends none the less, that expect people to clear a hotel room if they want to have sex and it makes me incredibly angry that they can't consider the same courtesy for my girlfriend and I nor wait 10 minutes for us to finish or forego obnoxious yelling to be let in while we get dressed.

PS to Susan, I got your txt and haven't responded yet, congrats on the win!

Thanks Lady Gaga, as we remember the birth of Christ and the taking off of clothes XD




On a cooler note, Weezer's new album came out and it's awesome. I'm really excited about one of Cuomo's songs from his solo album being done over (and featuring Lil Wayne?) it's a really cool song.




Tomorrow I am going to Pittsburgh to watch 2012 and drink and celebrate the end of the world. I'm really excited as it was my party idea and I've actually gotten 12-13 people to confirm on Facebook, despite it being a Monday night and NEXT WEEK IS ANIME USA!!!! OMG OMG OMG!

It's happening really fast, I have three more shifts at work, and four more guitar lessons and then I'm spending Thanksgiving with Laura and her family and moving the days after.

Today I signed a lease for an apartment in Pittsburgh a few blocks from my girlfriend. I'm happy to be moving, especially as my current roommates had a BABY AND DIDN'T MENTION EVER THEY WERE PREGNANT!!!! Soooo angry, soooo not cool. Be decent you assfucks, if you are going to have a kid or planning it, mention it to the person moving in. Don't assume they will congratulate you on your baby and be happy to all of a sudden be living with a family with a shitbag who cries all the time. The living room, which has my video games, it constantly taken up my baby stuff, I'm talked to like a child and generally feel awkward in my current apartment.

Worse part though, I was gone from Thursday-Wednesday and the baby was born Sunday. They have my email and phone number and I was never notified. I LIVE IN YOUR RESIDENCE!!!!

Now I need to find a job and I found a couple worth applying to near where I'm moving. I can't wait to show everyone the view from the place though. Panoramic view of downtown Pittsburgh with a clear shot of all three rivers. It's absolutely gorgeous. And it is less money than my current apartment by almost 100 dollars.

I still want to go to UVa, but I think I'm done with Virginia. I kinda want to move wherever I feel like and not worry about life. It will happen and at this point, it's stupid to push so hard to get a career.

I also have to be in court, in Virginia, in 8 hours, four of which will involve driving from Pittsburgh, lol 5 HOUR ENERGY!!!!!

The past two days I've spent travleing to Lynchburg, VA with Laura. We went to see a band I like from where I grew up in Harrisonburg and also her friend from college live down there.

Meeting her friends was cool as I know more of where she came from, but the most memborable was the naked party we had today in my car.

We danced naked to the entire Rocky Horror soundtrack WHILE DRIVING!!!!!

We also stopped at the marble mansion, Swananoa, which had an open house this weekend by chance and we got to walk the groundsm besides one minor bout today was perfect with lovely company. :D

So last night, to recall high school drama, my girlfriend's ex called (not drunk) multiple times at 3am waking us up. Its so funny to think how awful I've been called then compare it to the craziness of her ex.

(He txted her for a booty call two weeks ago and said it's okay he [I] doesn't have to know, who still uses that line)

I'm glad I'm not the one who's crazy

So if you've never been to Pittsburgh, at night it's a gorgeous place with the buildings and bridges lit up over three rivers and miuntains on all sides. Tonight my girlfriend is taking me to this cable car that overlooks the city. As a sidenote it was rated the third most romantic place in America in some online poll, which while not important is kinda impressive? Not really? I am super excited though, our relationship is so rocky sometimes, but the moments we come together make up for any negative and then more.

And finally we're starting to trust each other a little more. Its so strange that our last actual relations were of the same length and had the same problems after the fact. It helps to relate, but it also make our ex's linger.

(As a tagent, "it's complicated" is resolved by this question: are you having sex?, yes means it's not complicated unless they are a different species, if you aren't then it's not complicated, you aren't together)

I went and saw these guys with my girlfriend last night and I'm pretty sure I've wasted my time on other bands.

Not only are they extremely talented they are also the most entertaining band I've ever seen and what's even better is they don't have a "we're better cause we're the band" mentality. They encourage the crowd to participate which involved nearly 1000 people jumping and dancing for their hour set list.

And then their encore was another 40 minutes.

Sorry the quality on the video isn't the best, but it's the best representation of them live.

Enjoy!!!!

ooooohhhhhhhhhhh wwwwwwwwooooooooowwwwwwwwwwwww wtf....

holy crap, what a week!!!!

that should be a title, quickly, TO THE TITLE BAR!!!!!

Last Saturday I went to a rock concert at a roller rink and saw a band hat performed in skintight skin color things looking quite nude and they were amazing!

And then the next day I took part in this.  It's a world record attempt to gather zombies in the VERY SAME MALL THE ORIGINAL DAWN OF THE DEAD WAS FILMED!!!!!!

I WAS A ZOMBIE WHERE GEORGE ROMERO FILMED ZOMBIES!!!!!!!

I was also bad ass enough to know that zombies don't all go down the down escalator and took my chances on the down escalator with hilarious success.

Monday and most of the week ended up blurring together as I experienced a fever of 103 for most of the week and stayed in Pittsburgh as a result.

Today I went to the Maryland Renaissance Faire, a fair of type to which I've never been before, and could probably well attend many times hereafter.  Game are a dollar, which makes me play more, but is so much more enjoyable. AND YOU CAN WIN BEER! Some wenches like to get wet and I should make that happen, and also I should dress up.  Een though it was cold and rainy in the morning the atmosphere washighly enjoyable!

I'm dying.

if I ever piece together my girlfriend"s emotional responses I deserve a prize. And also, ramen, last night's leftover alcohol, cigs and AVGN start off a morning right!

What pain exists that eludes 6 shots of vodka and 2 vicodin? Oh, a broken hand :(

I am le sick :( but I'm going home to move into a new apartment with arty people who have parties to watch Glee! So I'm sure I'll be happy. This weekend is Laura's brothers b day and we having a tattoo party, so that should be super fun. So I'm really excited, and now that I know where I'm going to live it's easier to know where to apply for jobs XD

Such news...

I'm moving on Thursday to a new apartment with a couple my age. They like art, video games and Glee XD so it's pretty much incredible. It's also right across the street from another location of the restaurant I work at, so I might be able to transfer would would help a lot as walking beats driving 15 mins.

In other stuff, my girlfriend is sick and being kinda boring right now. Not to mention the other night we got into a fight over me supporting the effort in Afghanistan. Basically, her brother enlisted in the Marines and is going to (and excited to go) to Afghanistan this winter. Either way, I said that I supported it and almost all communication and all affection were withheld. As that reminds me of too many things before in past relationships I walked off without saying good-bye or anything mostly to avoid the situation and hoping it could solve itself. Later when she came home I explained a bit and she wasn't forgiving could not understand at all what I meant and I rolled over on my side thinking the relationship was pointless. I'd been with her for 10 hours at this point and still hadn't received as much as a hug and she tries to comfort me I guess and since I was still angry I told her to "get the fuck off me" and she stormed out to sleep elsewhere.

After a minute of cursing myself and punching the wall I walked to find her and explained that I was most upset about having all affection withheld and that it reminds me of relationships in the past that went awful and that I need to know that an opinion of mine won't be a decider on the level of affection given.

It is clear that both of us aren't the best in relationship and are both still recovering from our last and make up sex can only patch up hurt feelings for so long...no matter how great it is and right now I'm not sure either of us wants to establish a strong system for lack of commitment or fear.

Yelling at cats



and a cool rap BATTLE!!!



Envy sucks balls, Eli kicks AZZ with his straight up clever rhymes. HE'S THE BESS MAYN!

I'm not sure what's going on. It seems as if I fear any sort of commitment as in Laura suggested doing something in January and the time frame made me nervous, however, in the same day, yesterday, she said I love you unprompted for the first time.

Some of her txts are amazing and make me smile completely goofy smiles, but it still seems like something's wrong...and it's frustrating.

Playtoy = Fuck Buddy = Girlfriend...

I have a few mixed feelings.

1. Pittsburgh is not close to DC.

2. Playtoys and Fuck Buddies don't make me anxious.

3. She is defiant when restrictions (such as fidelity) are issued.

But god is she amazing in so many ways. I told her last night that at this point I would hurt as a friend or boyfriend if we lost our connection and in short: I love her and want to experience her love as well.

I'm overjoyed she said yes with a shyness and smile. "I'm so happy!" She said. And so am I.